Insomnia

It is past 1am and I’m still awake. I tried watching a few movies, but sleep didn’t come knocking. So I’m back here on my computer. Trying to write today’s piece. And I’m thinking to myself… the same thing happened last night. Sleep is eluding me.

My husband is blessed. As soon as he hits the sack… he’s gone baby, gone! I wonder how he does it. Me, I have to plug my ears and get drowned in music. My favs are Michael W. Smith or Nathaniel Bassey. Music didn’t work last night. I haven’t tried it tonight. It’s hopeless.

I think I know why I can’t sleep. Insomnia only comes when something is tugging at you. You want something. You are searching, asking, needing, knocking. But are you praying? Sometimes we are at a loss for words. We go to God but we don’t know what to say to Him.

In fact these days we need John Bunyan’s teachings on how to pray. What I mean is when do you ask, when do you knock, when do you seek… when do you confess the word, when do you call it forth and speak it? ‘Cause truth is sometimes, I’m just at a loss for words.

A few days back, as we read the book of Exodus, my husband and I, we found something quite profound. In Exodus 23:28-30, God said, I will drive out the Canaanites, Hittites, (etc.), but I will not force them all out at once in one year. I will drive them out slowly (underline slowly). So that the land does not become desolate and the wild animals become too many for you to handle.

And it dawned on us, God never delays a blessing or an answer to punish us or to teach us a lesson. He does it because He sees beyond the horizons which our mortal eyes can see. So I guess I will do myself some good and get some sleep. Because He gives His beloveth sleep. If certain things seem slow, it is because He is keeping the wild animals at bay.

Your turn; sleep much lately? Share your concerns with insomnia.

Psalms 127:2
In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat— for He grants sleep to those He loves. — NIV
It is foolishness for you to work so hard from early morning until late at night, anxiously working for food to eat; for God gives rest to His loved ones. — NLT